Memorial Day

Property of Riann Photography - no watermark out of respect, but please respect the image.

While everyone is enjoying their BBQs and long weekends -I am enjoying mine- we need to have have a moment of silence. In the picture above is Trevor Pinnick who passed away June 12, 2012 that little girl is his daughter and that little girls mother is a great lady who is so incredibly strong. He passed away before his baby turned two, before he could come home one last time and before his wife could say she loved him again over a sat phone or an infamous skype call. Like I've said in the past, being able to take their family pictures was amazing, having them in my life has been amazing, but his sacrifice should and has to be remembered today.

This holiday.. I don't even like calling it a holiday, is very close to my heart. This day makes me remember those who've passed before by giving their sacrifice to this amazing country. 

I just want to take a moment, not to just remember those sacrifices, but also to thank every single service member. 

Thank you. 

All gave some. Some gave all. 

Hug your airman, soldier, marine, sailor, grandparent, husband or just anyone who has served or has lost someone whose served. 

-Acacia 

Oh.. this ones hard

Sometimes I feel like I'll never be able to write out what I want to say.. That I'll never be able to explain the things going on in my life, my head or my heart. 

When I was a kid.. I was kind of just there, I had the "awakening" moment and then drifted by. I was nothing special, I felt more like a burden.. abandoned and left at the mercy of the world. I was different and I knew it, but I didn't know why. 

This last Sunday we were talking about the power of prayer at church, and as the last few weeks have, it was just pulling on my heart.. the guest pastor asked if we had anything we wanted to have prayed over to go ahead and meet them at the back of the auditorium... and I went back there with this man and his wife whose pregnant.. and said the worst thing in the world that I could possibly say. 

"When I was 15, my mom told me I should've been an abortion.. and when I confronted her about this, about all the things she's said and done and just.. never said anything more about she stood by her comment" 

I've talked about this a few times to people, trying to figure out why someone would say that about a child.. about their fourth child and wouldn't think the same for their other children. To say I was tearing up, that the pastor and his wife were tearing up.. understatement. I've tried to come to terms with this over the years, and last week when this all came to a head..  I sat and prayed.. I talked to A and let go. I finally felt okay, that a burden had been lifted from my chest and that I am able to move on.. that I am able to finally become whoever I am meant to be. There is a season that I'm in and learning, I am just becoming better than I ever thought I would. 

I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, and my soul knows it very well. -Psalm 139:14 

All I can say for you moms, for you ladies whoever want to be moms, if there is ever a moment in your pregnancy or your child's life that you think "I don't want you" or that you can't have them... adoption is a beautiful thing, and there are so many people who want a child who don't have the ability to have one or want to give someone a beautiful life. I'm not saying that I should've been adopted, but I can say that those words have stayed with me since I was 15, and it has taken this long to finally be okay and move on.. and unfortunately, my mother wont be in my future. 

Think before speaking. 

May 4th | Blog Everyday in May!

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And here I am again, I am so gonna rock this month! 

Favorite Quote:

It is truly hard for me to decide on just one quote.. I have a few things out there that mean a lot to me. So here are a few that I have on my desktop at any one time. 

Moving with A... 

and our new base is.....

Grand Forks AFB in North Dakota! 

Was this our first choice? No, was it even on the list? NOPE! But it is where we are being placed and it is where we will call home for three years come August.  

What do I know about this place? 

It floods and its cold.

2/3 of the time its snowing in the winter.

It gets in the negatives. 

Its close to Canada. 

I know this isn't a place that we were hoping for, I know that we are moving to a place close to Minneapolis and that we're putting in to possibly swap to a different base. 

I wont lie when I say I'm nervous, scared and possibly going to freeze my butt off. I'm excited too.. we're going to be away from family, and we'll be going on many adventures. I'll be possibly starting school there, maybe buying a house? I don't know! But whatever it is, we will figure it out. 

But until we know for sure (orders are printed) we will assume this is our new home. 

-Acacia 

May 3rd | Blog Everyday in May

I told you I would participate in this challenge... I'm trying! 

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I've never read Jenni's blog, but because of some lovely ladies (Mrs McDancer & Ashley) who are participating I decided I should too. 

Things that make you uncomfortable:

I suppose a lot of things make me uncomfortable, or that I make others feel uncomfortable. I am awkward. 

- Sitting alone at church

- Military events 

- Bugs

- Most social events

- Hanging out with couples who fight in front of you 

- People at the gym who grunt while lifting.. dude.. I get it "beast mode" what-ev's 

- Going clothes shopping - hence my constant gym going lately. 

- My crazy neighbor, she over shares. 

- Being asked about A's & my relationship.. look we aren't getting married, no kids, I'm sorry you don't agree with it! 

- Being invited to ex's weddings. Thank you for making me apart of your big day, oh and for trying to subject me to side glances from your mother.. no thank you. 

- When people cry on the phone, did you guys know I don't show empathy well? 

I mean there are loads of things that make me uncomfortable, there are people in this world that I would rather go through a root canal than be in the same room as. But I do subject myself through a lot of those things on that list.. except ex's weddings. Its just wrong. 

Any ways.. looking forward to tomorrows link up! 

-Acacia

Its May!

Hellllllooooooooo May! 

This is an exciting month around this house, why? Oh because this is the month we get ORDERS! -supposedly- and A's mom is coming to visit.. plus I get to start shopping for my trip to Georgia. 

Anyone have any ideas? 

I thought these two are cute, the shorter one for graduation with some cute gladiator sandals and a long necklace.. the longer one for traveling or dinner on our first night? Who knows! 

Its starting to get busy here, I'm looking at that blog everyday in May.. its gonna be hard... but with my new schedule things seem to be kind of on the right track.. I'm up early, home to take bru out and off to the gym. The only downside being that they completely messed up my days off and I'm now trying to fix it. But for now I'll just leave you all with me being incredibly stressed, planning, and just waiting for orders ... I hate this waiting game! 

-Acacia