I have such a hard time with blogging. I have so much that I want to share, but this incredible filter on myself because these words are far more searchable than the words said in private.
This is my space, or at least I want it to be. I want this to be my refuge! The place I come when needing to share things and know that somewhere in the vastness that someone might read my thoughts. I am in no way profound, but I have things that sometimes
need crave an audience. I want you all to know me, authentically.
I need you to.
A lot of people had started 2015 out with a word that would be their resolution.. it wasn't until March when I started to really look inside myself that I found a word -or ten- that really made me want to really put myself into: Trust.
My trust has been broken so many times that I legitimately look for the flaws in others, the breaking points. I search them out, and I need to stop.
I need to trust.
Trust in God
Trust in Eric
Trust in myself
Trust in the good of man
Trust in my abilities
I see that this lack of trust has led me down a path that is rather lonely.. I feel as though these authentic relationships have disappeared. I've separated further and further from people who I love because I don't trust them.
So I will make this effort to trust and live, write and be as authentic as I possibly can be.