Trust | My Word

I have such a hard time with blogging. I have so much that I want to share, but this incredible filter on myself because these words are far more searchable than the words said in private. 

This is my space, or at least I want it to be. I want this to be my refuge! The place I come when needing to share things and know that somewhere in the vastness that someone might read my thoughts. I am in no way profound, but I have things that sometimes need crave an audience. I want you all to know me, authentically. 

I need you to. 

A lot of people had started 2015 out with a word that would be their resolution.. it wasn't until March when I started to really look inside myself that I found a word -or ten- that really made me want to really put myself into: Trust. 

My trust has been broken so many times that I legitimately look for the flaws in others, the breaking points. I search them out, and I need to stop. 

I need to trust. 

Trust in God

Trust in Eric

Trust in myself 

Trust in the good of man

Trust in my abilities 

Trust

I see that this lack of trust has led me down a path that is rather lonely.. I feel as though these authentic relationships have disappeared. I've separated further and further from people who I love because I don't trust them. 

So I will make this effort to trust and live, write and be as authentic as I possibly can be. 

New Design | Poppiness Designs

So obviously last week I was utterly excited about getting this new blog design and I kind of just felt like I needed to make an entire post about how incredibly working with Jane was. 
I had looked into Jane's designs previously, but wasn't sure I wanted to go the route of getting a new design because I don't blog.. but then I was all "nah, I need one so I WILL start blogging" obviously me spending money makes me use things.. my best blogging buddy Moira got one of her designs and I looked into my finances and decided that this 50% off October deal is not worth passing up and decided to take the plunge. 
So here I am.. sitting in front of my computer rapidly emailing Jane the following: Beach meets ballet  glitter feminine and clean can grow with me
and about 2 hours later Jane writes me and about a day later Jane sends me this:

Its like she knows me ;)  I am pretty much in love, obsessed and going gaga over this layout! 
She did this design so quickly and hit the nail on the head as far as what I wanted. Seriously, how often do you head to a design site and read "waiting list: not taking new designs till 2014" or similar things? I just cannot express enough how amazing she is and that's why I'm gushing about her in two blog posts -and probably the rest of my blogging life-  So yeah, head over to Poppiness Designs and check out all her lovely design work and make sure you follow her blog Pursuit of Poppiness so you can follow her adventures -also send her happy thoughts for this upcoming deployment! 
Any pictures posted were designed by Jane from Poppiness Designs and all credit goes to her.